Bilateral: Control

i’m bigger than my body

i’m colder than this home

i’m meaner than my demons

i’m bigger than these bones

It burned.

Like vodka, like fire, like defeat.

Was this death?

Collapsed in the wreckage of her empire, she painted the snow beneath her hands red.

Was this her blood?

Glass. Shattered picture frame. Broken family.

Weakness.

She hadn’t been strong enough to hold it together.

Bruises covered her body. Self-inflicted, self-destructive. Mistakes.

They hadn’t hurt one at a time. But all together they broke her.

“Russia?”

She saw a face through blurry vision. It wasn’t his, but she imagined it to be.

Her chest heaved, body shook, mind rattled.

This was death. The kind that swallows a phoenix and brings it back into the world screaming and searing and craving revenge.

Fingers curled tightly around broken glass. Crimson bloomed in the snow.

“Please, Russia. Put that down. You’re scaring me.”

Goddamn right, you should be scared of me.


Notes

Some people say the end of the Soviet Union was peaceful. Socialist republics got together in Alma-Ata and agreed to leave the USSR. Gorbachev resigned on Christmas Day. There was no revolution, no riot. During the final years of the Soviet Union Gorbachev might have been making strides to end the Cold War, but nobody likes it when their sand castle crumbles. Especially not Russia.

I’d been wanting to do something based on Halsey’s darkly beautiful song “Control” for a long time. Please give the song a listen. It’s good.

 

 

Author: sarahbruso

International relations major, certified nerd, and suffering writer. I dig humor, video games, and global politics.

Start a discussion

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s